When Adoption Gets Hard

Well, I’ve probably been silent on here long enough. I said in the beginning that I would update on our adoption as things went along. And then I never really did. At first it was because we were worried about putting too much identifying information out there. We wanted to protect us, our adoption, and especially the little girl we are adopting. Things seemed to be going along smoothly and we didn’t want to rock the boat. But, when we set out we said that we wanted to be open and transparent about the ins and outs and ups and downs of adoption. So, even though it’s hard, I want to share what’s going on with us right now.

For the last month and a half we’ve been hearing news of a possible shut-down of intercountry adoption in Uganda. This would mean that it would be nearly impossible for us to continue with our plans to adopt our daughter. This is obviously very hard news for us. What made this news especially alarming is that we are literally just two steps away from completing our adoption. We’re waiting on some paperwork from our little girl’s home village, once that paperwork is submitted, we will be able to apply for a court date…the date that we would travel to Uganda to get legal guardianship of our daughter. When we chose to adopt from Uganda, we went into it with our eyes wide open. Basically, we knew that something like this–or some other situation completely–could happen and we would have to walk away from this adoption. We just weren’t prepared for it to happen so late in the game. When we accepted our referral, and then a private investigation came back quickly and verified the facts we had already been told, we thought we were in the clear.

I don’t know if I can really put into words just how much this has affected us. When it looked like the act that would change the rules for intercountry adoption would certainly pass, I think we reached a real low point. I couldn’t do the simplest things without crying. I had let myself get comfortable enough with the adoption to start imagining incorporating this little girl into our everyday lives. When I was at the grocery store, going to church, going out to dinner, I kept thinking (and sometimes saying), “It will be so awesome to do this with a little one in tow,” or, “Won’t it be so great to introduce our daughter to…(fill in the blank with whatever activity we were doing).” Now I’m trying to let go of those thoughts and I frequently find myself missing and longing for something I never had to begin with. We felt so called to this adoption, to this specific child, why would God allow something like this to happen?

We have spent the last 6 weeks praying fervently for something to happen. For God to move in a miraculous way. One of my very best friends said to me, “Julie, God keeps his promises. God is not done yet.” And for now, I’m choosing to hold onto that.To trust that God can still make a way for us to bring this precious one home, even when it seems like our hope is slipping away. Will you pray with us?

I’ll be back with more when we get some more concrete details. Thank you friends, for loving us, and for caring so much about our little girl already. We’re so grateful for the support we’ve been shown :).


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I’m in a meal rut. Like, I never know what to cook, I don’t even want to cook, really. But I want to eat. Which poses a real problem. Is it because it’s summer? I have no idea. I do know that I went to the grocery store last week without planning a single meal (always a bad idea) and came back with a bunch of fruit. And avocados. I don’t know if you know this, but it’s not super easy to make meals with fruit and avocados. Finding something in the house for dinner every night was challenging. By the end of the week Corey took things into his own hands and made an entire dinner ;). Which brings me to my next point…Corey wants to try Whole30 to revamp our diet. Have you heard of this? I’m a little intimidated. Mostly because it’s pretty meat-heavy and I’m not a big meat eater. The goal is to eliminate all grains, dairy, legumes, and sugar for 30 days. I think it’s a little drastic, but people who have tried it say it makes them feel better. There doesn’t seem to be much research to back up the claims that dairy and grains are all that terrible for you (something the Whole30 creators maintain), so I’m not sure I’m ready to give up my daily yogurt or whole grain toast. Or oatmeal for that matter. Has anyone tried this and had a positive experience? Let me know, I’d love to hear!

Earlier this month Corey and I went to a bed and breakfast in the Outer Banks to celebrate our anniversary. I’m going to do a post on the trip, but it was so much fun. I’ve never stayed in a b&b before, and now I feel like it’s the only way to go! This one in particular was so nice. The owners were so hospitable and accomodating to whatever we needed. It was such a relaxing and refreshing time away. We seriously have already started talking about when we can go back.

In other news, the progress on our adoption seems to have stopped completely. Without going in to much detail, things don’t look good right now and it seems like everything could fall apart. We’re worried, but trying to be hopeful. And praying a lot. Will you pray with us? Right now we just just need all our paperwork to be submitted to the court (not something we do), if you could pray that this happens within the next couple of weeks, we would so appreciate it. I’ll update as soon as we have more conclusive information.

Until next time….



Scenes From a Sunday

So I guess I’m blogging once a month now. Whatever, I’m going with it.

Last week was crazy. Like, almost insane. I came back from Ohio, and somehow ended up working 8 out of 9 days in a row. I kind of knew what I was doing when I scheduled myself for some extra days, but it didn’t exactly compute until I was in the middle of the situation. Whoa, buddy. I was exhausted at the end of the week! On Friday night, Corey asked me what an ideal day would be, and suggested that I stay in bed Sunday morning while he got up and made breakfast for us. I agreed immediately, because who in their right mind would turn down an offer like that?
Yesterday morning I had a meeting/training at church, so Sunday was our day! This is one of the many reasons I love Saturday night church. We get to take our time getting up Sunday morning and just get to relax with coffee before doing anything important. It really is so nice.
I woke up around 7:30 feeling pretty awake, and since I’m not actually a huge stay-in-bed kind of person, I got up and went downstairs. Corey followed and started our breakfast while I stretched out on the couch with a blanket and a book.
Cece went between the couch and the window while I read.
I’m reading this awesome book that has me all excited about cooking every week. It has been just the motivation I needed to fall in love with making meals again. While I was enjoying my book (and snuggles with the pup), Corey made omelets, cinnamon rolls, and coffee. We sat and ate together and drank coffee and talked. It was so nice.
After breakfast we just stayed on the couch and read and, of course, snuggled some more.
This dog. Clearly she is not loved at.all.
After doing some chores around the house, we watched the Cowboys pull off a nail biter. Good grief was I nervous! The life of a Cowboys fan.
Corey doing a good job of keeping his cool during the game ;).
After the game, we turned on our new favorite show, Fixer Upper and I had a chance to paint my nails. I’ve decided having painted nails makes me feel feminine and I’m going to try to do it more. Even if it only lasts for 4 or 5 days. And let’s be honest, that’s best-case scenario. Oh well, it’s fun and pretty while it lasts.
We took an afternoon walk with Cece and tonight we’re meeting up with some friends for dinner.
 All in all, this day was just exactly what I needed. It wasn’t exciting, but that’s kind of the name of the game when I’m stressed and frazzled. Sometimes I feel like I have to try not to feel bad about just taking a day to do nothing. I definitely had some of that feeling today. We did get some stuff done that we needed to–laundry, ironing, cleaning the house, Corey and Jon fixed my car–but for some reason when I’m relaxing and doing things I enjoy I start to feel a little guilty. Why do I do that? Does anyone else do that to themselves? I do know that I feel ready to face this week after such a relaxing day, though :). And that feels nice.