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A Huge Epic Life Update

Ok, fine, the title might be a little misleading. No big news here, but it’s been so long since I updated this space and actually finding time to sit down and write something certainly feels big :).

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I realized recently how nice it is to have something to look back on and see what I was thinking/feeling during a certain time in life, especially while we in the process of adopting our girl girls ;). I wish I had been better about writing here during the last year because it was such a unique one. But the truth is, I’m exhausted. Like literally I think most of what we’ve experienced in the last 12 months has felt like a complete blur because it was all so overwhelming with the highs and the lows and the life changes–some having to do with adjusting to life as a family of four, some things that we brought on ourselves that added to the stress of it all. I feel like I’m just now starting to climb out of the fog that has covered me for a year. Just the other day I was trying to think what I was thinking and feeling last year at this time (when we had been home with our girls for just a couple weeks), what our days looked like and what we were doing with our time. The only thing I could come up with was that I was tired. Just sheer exhaustion.

In a lot of ways this year has been a struggle. I’ve been so happy but there have been many days that I’ve felt overwhelmed, frustrated, and really alone. Adoption is such a funny thing, there’s so much support while you’re walking through it, but at the same time it can be a very isolating journey–for adoptive parents and adopted kiddos alike. There are a lot of things that happened surrounding our adoptions that I’m just now beginning to process. Part of coming out of the fog of the last year, perhaps. But while I feel like some semblance of peace has settled over our home life, these feelings of anger and confusion are starting to come to the surface. Obviously, things to deal with so we can move on in a healthy way. If you’re an adoptive parent reading this and processing things that seem overwhelming to you, you are not alone. Adoption is amazing, yes, but it is also hard and admitting that it feels like more than you can bear at times does not diminish the sheer miracle of adoption! In fact, I think it only serves to highlight God’s amazing grace.

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Our crazy family. Literally, this was the best picture we took. Sigh.

So, what about the good stuff? Oh friends, there is so so very much. These little girls are such a joy. There have been lots of shenanigans in the Hart household over the last year.

We’ve been busy with work and play…

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learning so much in homeschool…

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visiting our favorite aunties…

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and somewhere in there I got a little crazy and started my very own business (which, seriously, am I nuts?  …don’t answer that).

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This wasn’t a great all-encompassing update, but I hope it got you up to speed a little bit with what is going on with us. My goal over the next couple months is to write here a couple times a week. And maybe I’ll even start on that adoption story I promised you guys over a year ago ;)! Thank you for reading and following along with the life of our family.

 

 

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We’re Alive! And (Mostly) Making It!

Ok, I’ve neglected this spot for a really long time. I say that a lot, don’t I? But this time it was kind of an intentional break. I love having this blog so I can look back at certain times in our life as a family to remember what was going on and how it was all making me feel. But after we brought our girls home, I just really needed time and space to be really present and experience the changes without having to analyze things or organize my thoughts. And to be really honest, Uganda was hard. Like really really hard. And I needed some distance from it to be able to process things before I talked a lot about it.

BUT–we’re making it! Well, we’re mostly making it. Some days are better than others. Actually, we’ve had a lot more of the better days recently. There are still days where I have to just ask myself at the end of the day, “is everyone still alive?” and if the answer is yes, I’ll count it as a win. But every day I am just so so grateful to be where I am and living this life I’ve been called to.

So, some Hart family updates–

  • In July we went on vacation with my whole family. It was by far the most interesting vacation we’ve ever taken together. Full of critters, power outages, scorching temps, and no air conditioning. Oh yeah, and having the water shut off on us. Corey and I voted it our most Ugandan vacation–that wasn’t to Uganda. Weird for sure–but also quite memorable ;).

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Baby Jesse is wondering if these cousins know what they’re doing ;).

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I cannot get enough of this picture. So cute, all of them.

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Leiper’s Fork, TN, photobombed by JJ.

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I’m as obsessed with baby Jesse as the girls are. He is so sweet and squishy!

  • Over the summer we also decided to home school the girls. I am so excited about this decision, but over the last week I’ve started to get really nervous! I think it will be amazing though, and I’m so grateful for the opportunity.

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(Ok, I’m not gonna lie. This was taken during the most grueling game of Memory ever. Bonnie and I just about lost our minds. Hoping home schooling goes better than this. I mean, it has to, right??)

  • In August, we took our first just-girls roadtrip to PA to visit my family. It was so much fun–the girls had a blast and came back to Durham totally.exhausted. I’m really looking forward to doing this every summer.

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I love how much she loves him. Are you noticing a theme here? I think this was the summer of baby Jesse!

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We went to Delgrosso water park while we were in PA. The girls had such a blast! We can’t wait to do it again.

  • One of the biggest things for me this summer is that I onboarded and started selling LuLaRoe clothing! It has been challenging and time consuming, but so much fun and I’m really excited to see where this is going to go.

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That’s all for now. I’m so glad to be back here writing. I’ll share more with you as I’m able. Thank you for keeping up with us and our adventures!

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Favorite Things {5.1.16 Edition}

This week has been such a great one! I’ve been off the unit since Sunday (and I’m not back until next Wednesday, yay!!), and it’s been such a nice little break. I also feel like I got some extended time with the girls, which was so much fun. Some pictures from our week below :).

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My goal was to work out one time this week. I have not worked out at all since October (!!). Uganda just kind of messed everything up, and then I didn’t want to rush leaving the girls in the kids area. Well, I’m happy to report I got to work out TWICE this week!! This is a picture post work-out while the girls were having quiet time. I had my leggings on, book in hand, and a warm chai. Hopefully I’ll be able to get back to the gym several times next week too. I’ll report back!

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I posted this on my Instagram earlier this week. The girls were all.over. Corey after small group on Monday. Lots of screaming “daddy! daddy!” I think Corey was totally in his element (even if his shoulder was a little sore afterward).

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We hung out with our friends earlier this week and Teddy insisted on dressing one of the little guys there. Look at his face, so cute and sweet. T is such a good little mommy. She is totally in her element when she’s taking care of others.

I’m attending our annual trauma conference (yesterday and today) this week. It has been nice to get away from the unit for a little bit and to learn lots of new stuff. I love spending the day with these work friends!!

That’s all for this week. I’m really looking forward to this weekend and my first Mother’s Day!

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